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Most days, I love my job overall.  However, days like today make me seriously rethink my vocation.  One of our students died in a car crash.  Her boyfriend was driving too fast, lost control of the car on a curve, and wrapped the car around a tree.  The point of impact was where she sat.  I have seen the pictures and I don't see how anyone could survive that.  They kept her on life support for a short time, but the damage was too much.  The family did donate her organs, so part of her will live on and help others.  She was 15.  I think the thing that breaks my heart the most about it is that, in the process of counseling her friends with their grief, I found out that she has been neglected by her father and mother.  She had not been a happy girl, and now she will never have the chance to find happiness.  Unfortunate things like this make me appreciate what I have and that, while my life isn't perfect, I usually can find some happiness in every day.  I am blessed with family and friends who love me.  To all of those  of you reading this, thank you for your support and friendship.  Take a moment and count the miracles in your lives no matter how small they may seem.  You truly never know when you may not have another chance to count them. 

I dread going into work tomorrow because I know what the morning holds for us.  Grief counseling takes so much out of me.  I feel like I've been beaten with a stick now.  I don't even want to know what will happen tomorrow.  On top of that, we have standardized, high stakes testing which I have to supervise.  Testing is not usually a problem once things get started, but until it gets up and running, things go a little crazy.  Testing isn't so bad.  It's quite boring in  most cases since we don't get to vary what happens, thus being the standard part of standardized tests.  I just don't need the hassle of making all of the arrangements for that while trying to lead the crisis grief counseling team that will be in the office tomorrow.  I am already emotionally drained, so I don't need the extra stress.  I just want to muddle through  tomorrow well enough to survive the day.