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Jan. 3rd, 2007 10:22 pmMost days, I love my job overall. However, days like today make me seriously rethink my vocation. One of our students died in a car crash. Her boyfriend was driving too fast, lost control of the car on a curve, and wrapped the car around a tree. The point of impact was where she sat. I have seen the pictures and I don't see how anyone could survive that. They kept her on life support for a short time, but the damage was too much. The family did donate her organs, so part of her will live on and help others. She was 15. I think the thing that breaks my heart the most about it is that, in the process of counseling her friends with their grief, I found out that she has been neglected by her father and mother. She had not been a happy girl, and now she will never have the chance to find happiness. Unfortunate things like this make me appreciate what I have and that, while my life isn't perfect, I usually can find some happiness in every day. I am blessed with family and friends who love me. To all of those of you reading this, thank you for your support and friendship. Take a moment and count the miracles in your lives no matter how small they may seem. You truly never know when you may not have another chance to count them.
I dread going into work tomorrow because I know what the morning holds for us. Grief counseling takes so much out of me. I feel like I've been beaten with a stick now. I don't even want to know what will happen tomorrow. On top of that, we have standardized, high stakes testing which I have to supervise. Testing is not usually a problem once things get started, but until it gets up and running, things go a little crazy. Testing isn't so bad. It's quite boring in most cases since we don't get to vary what happens, thus being the standard part of standardized tests. I just don't need the hassle of making all of the arrangements for that while trying to lead the crisis grief counseling team that will be in the office tomorrow. I am already emotionally drained, so I don't need the extra stress. I just want to muddle through tomorrow well enough to survive the day.
I dread going into work tomorrow because I know what the morning holds for us. Grief counseling takes so much out of me. I feel like I've been beaten with a stick now. I don't even want to know what will happen tomorrow. On top of that, we have standardized, high stakes testing which I have to supervise. Testing is not usually a problem once things get started, but until it gets up and running, things go a little crazy. Testing isn't so bad. It's quite boring in most cases since we don't get to vary what happens, thus being the standard part of standardized tests. I just don't need the hassle of making all of the arrangements for that while trying to lead the crisis grief counseling team that will be in the office tomorrow. I am already emotionally drained, so I don't need the extra stress. I just want to muddle through tomorrow well enough to survive the day.